Teenage runaway 4. del

He rolled his eyes. I thought to myself, we're getting somewhere. This was the first time we actually properly spoke. If now's not the right moment, than I don't know if there'll be one at all. So I went for it, and said:

''Why are you so locked up in your own mind? Like you don't wanna talk to me…'' You could obviously tell I was very nervous.

He slowly moved his eyes away from the book up to me. His eyebrows were very sharp, his forehead intense. ''That's none of your business. Plus who said that I'm locked up in my own mind? That's just crap.''

I won't give up on making him talk to me and stop being rude, I thought. I noticed my palms were getting a bit sweaty and my heart started rushing. But I'll be brave this time. He won't just shut me up like that.

''Why do you get so annoyed with everything I say? You can't push people away for your entire life'' I said really scared of his reaction.

He stood up from the bed, raising his voice a bit: ''What do you know about life, huh? How can you even think that being a perfect little teenage daughter, who gets everything she wants and thinks she can change the world, is life? I tell you, you've lived like 3% of life. And the rest is something that you'll never unleash because your ''life'' is already so goddamn perfect.''

My eyes went wide. And I felt like the weight of the universe just crashed onto my head, and its preassure wasn't something that I could handle. I needed to get myself out of the situation as I felt like I was about to cry. My voice was shaky and I had a lump in my throat:

''Apparently that's all you see.'' I couldn't take it any longer, so I got off the bed and walked pass him, my shoulder lightly touched his chest. I quickly put on my flip flops and started heading towards the door.

''Jenny, don't…'' Harry said, with a slightly apologetic voice. I didn't turn around. The next moment I was out in the hall, and slowly started walking down the stairs. I heard someone open the door behind my back. I knew it was Harry. I acted like I didn't hear anything.

''Where do you think you're going now?'' He asked.

''I'm gonna get a different dorm. This obviously isn't gonna work.'' I replied, still not turning around.

''Just come back inside, I don't think the reception is still working anyway.'' He said.

''I'm pretty sure it is. And why would I? I annoy the crap out of you.'' I said.

''Look, I was a bit of a dick. I'm sorry, okay? Can we please go back inside now?'' He said, placing his  hand on my shoulder. The moment he touched my bare skin peeking out from a sleeveless top, it was like electricity ran through my whole body. I've never felt this way before. I got goose bumps all over my skin.

''See, you're cold now, we definitely need to go back inside.'' He said. I didn't say a word, I just turned around and followed him back into the dorm. As we came in I immediately walked over to my bed and sat on it, my legs crossed over one another. I watched him take off his coat.

His skin was so tempting, and I've never seen plain black look so good on somebody before. His tight black jeans were hugging his legs from the top to the bottom. I found his tattoos, scattered over his body weirdly attractive, and by the T-shirt exposing his collarbones, I could see that his chest was decorated with a couple of tattoos as well.  He started walking towards my bed, and sat down next to me.

''Look, I never thought I'd get someone to share a dorm with, so I'm not used to it and stuff.'' He said, looking at his fingers while he was gently running them over his cross tattoo on his left hand.

''Why are you so quiet all the time?'' I asked him with a softer voice.

-''I'm not used to all of it. I'm more or less living in my head all the time.. this probably made no sence…'' He said, still not making eye contact with me. It seemed to me like he was a bit embarassed.

-''It actually does make sence to me. Is there a reason for that?'' I asked.

-''I'm sure there are more important things for you to be worried about right now.'' He said with a calm voice.

-''I'm guessing you don't wanna talk about it.'' I said gently.

-''I like being on my own, okay? There's nobody to make me do something that I don't feel like it's the right thing for me.'' He said.

-''You know people who do that aren't worth your time'' I said.

-''You're really naive, Jenny. It's not that simple.'' He said, his face dropped.

I really didn't know what to say. He got up and started walking towards his bed. He layed down.

''Harry… I ….'' I said, but wasn't able to finish my sentence.

''You can't help me. I'm good with what I am now. It's late, you should go to sleep.'' He said. I felt helpless.

''I can try.'' – I said.

-''Goodnight, Jenny.'' Is all that he said.

-''Goodnight, Harry.'' I replied.

Sun is a tempter. Every morning. I always woke up full of new ideas. But this morning it was different. I needed to talk to him.

I slowly pulled myself up, my body supported by my arms and hands that drowned in the softness of the sheets. As I tugged them away I felt like balance was escaping me. I ran my fingertips through my hair, that was previously pulled into a messy bun, and was now just a mess of tangles, curls and unevenly ironed hair. Yuck.

The first thing I did was look over to Harry's bed. It was empty, but I could tell he was still in the dorm, since it wasn't made and the sheets were tangled in a large rope. Messy sleeper.

My toes touched the cold floor and I immediately wanted to get back to bed. But I can't. I have classes today, I thought. I walked over to my drawer, picked out some makeup and a flat iron. I was ready in 15 minutes and I felt like I was sleepy, messy and tired, trapped in a neatly ready body that looked like it was awake for at least and hour and didn't have any problems with it. I didn't wanna leave until Harry got out of the shower.

I could smell his shower gel. Again. For some reason I wanted to add it to my list of my favourite smells. I sat down on my bed and picked my nails. They were freshly painted, and I decided to go for a plain black nail polish this time.  I heard the bathroom door open.

''Hey.'' Harry said with a raspy voice.

''Morning.'' I replied.

''Classes today''' He asked.

''Yeah. I'm a bit nervous actually..'' I said, realising that I've shared what I feel with him for the first time.

He said: ''Yeah, you know when you come into the classroom there's like a thousand zombies and the teacher is secretly a possesed pope.'' He said with a smirk on his face.

''Come on, Harry.'' I said and playfully pushed his shoulder. ''You still haven't told me why you like being alone..'' I added. I thought it was the right time now that he's all goofy and in a good mood. Bad choice.

His face was serious again. ''I told you I'm fine with the way I am, I don't need your help.''

-''Sorry, I was just asking.'' I said.

-''Yeah whatever. Have fun today.'' He said and I noticed that he forced himself into all that  kindness at the end of his sentence.

''Thanks. See you later.'' I said and went out the door. He nooded.

As I was walking down the hallway all I could think was; why? Why did I have to ask him that now? He finally started to comunicate with me and, well, at least up to his abillities tried to have some manners and here I am, asking him stupid stuff again. ''Way to go, Jenny.'' I said, realising I was standing in the middle of the hallway, talking to myself. Thank god there was no one near.

The streets were full of people that day, since the school started for us, younger kids there. Everyone was with someone, and there I was, walking all by myself. I felt a pat on my shoulder.

''Hello, Jen!'' Someone said with an excited voice. It was Niall.

-''Hey!'' I said, relieved that I finally have someone that I know in front of me.

''First day, huh?''

-''I guess so, yepp.'' I said, lightly smilling.

-''You nervous?'' He asked with a very soft Irish accent.

-''A bit… quite a bit a actually.'' I said with a tiny smile.

-''Everyone is, and it always turns out okay. The teachers aren't so bad eather.'' Niall calmed me. I saw a girl running towards us behind his back.

''Hey pumkpiiiin!'' She said loudly with a voice full of excitement, and put her arms around Niall's neck.

''Hello my lady.'' He replied. It became clear they're dating.

-''Hey, Jen I want you to meet my girlfriend, Cassidy.'' He said, and lifted his arm up and gently pushed her towards me.

''Just Cass. Nice meeting you!'' She said with a joyful smile. She had blonde hair, reching just above her shoulders, but by the colour of her eyes and eyebrows I could tell she's naturally a brunette. She had a silver nose piercing, that wasn't too outstanding and looked really nice in my opinion.

-''Hey, I'm Jenny. Nice meeting you too.'' I said with a smile on my face.

''It's Jenny's first day here, why don't you show her around, baby?'' Niall said to Cassidy.

-''I'd love that. Come sister, let's get around a bit.'' She said and took my hand.

-''Have fun girls.'' Niall said before we left.

-''You too!'' We both yelled back. I was really happy to have a friend here, that's actually a girl. And she seemed like a nice person in general.

We were walking down the alley around our school, and she was telling me all about the architecture, of what this school consists of, and I don't think I was paying full attention. My head was full of curiosity and mostly, how Harry and I are gonna cope from now on.

''Oh, and this is our part of the school. We're both in the same region.'' She said. I looked around. The first thing I noticed was a large tree, planted just outside the school entrance. I don't even know how many enterances there are, I've lost count at the 23rd one. Everything was huge. I definitely need someone to guide me around for at least 5 months before I actually get  rid of the risk of getting lost. The building itself was so divine. It reminded me of Hogwarts, just because it was so old and I felt like a tourist in my own school. It was like a part of cultural heritage. Just so beautiful and fascinating. Then Cass jumped over to the topic ''students''. This shall be interesting.

''That one over there, is Vicky. She's almost like a hooker and I hate saying this. But it's true. She throws herself all over the boys here and just leaves them afterwards.  It's pathethic. I wouldn't wanna be near her if I were you.'' She told me.

Then she went on and on about other students and I stopped paying attention again. Her voice was just all blurred in my mind of confusion and skepticism.

''And that's Harry Styles.'' She lowered her tone a bit. I shook and felt shivers all over my body. She continued:

''He's like the school punker. Every single one of these suckers falls for him. And not one of them is ever good enough for him. I don't know what he wants, but he's probably never gonna find a girl here. He's just never pleased. But he's heavenly. Without a doubt.'' She let out a sigh.

The words 'never good enough' repeatedly framed in my brain. I can't be one of those suckers. I'm not that shallow.

I noticed he was standing there with a group of other guys. One of them had blonde hair, and his black lower lip piercing sparkled in the sunlight. ''Who's that?'' I asked.

-''That's Luke. He's Australian.'' Cass said.

As I was gazing the other students, the bell rang. I immediately felt like my heart was gonna jump out my chest.

''We have the first class together!'' Cass said. She was a year above me, but chemistry class was always distributed between the first and second year students. I was relieved. But walking in on new classmates and all of the things that were so different compared to the school I went to before, still made me nervous.